Self-Deservingness

Have you ever had a day where everything that happens isnt supposed to???
When I have those days I find myself saying "This is not how it is supposed to go!" "This is NOT what I had planned!" But I mean seriously! All the possible plans, even plan D doesnt go through... it's just a wreck. So what's the solution to a day like this? p.o.u.t.Yup, thats it... I pout. A(almost) 15 year old chick goes up to her room and pouts.

I was thinking why does this even happen? Shouldnt I be mature enough to handle it when things dont go my way? The answer is no... when you look at the heart issue. If I fix the heart issue though, my attitude is fixed, but the heart issue is not so easy to dismiss. I found that in these situations the word that is constantly going through my head is "deserve"... the heart issue= self-deservingness. Truly I deserve nothing...nothing. So why does that word echo in my head? O, because I am selfish and I want my life to line up with what I want. What's hard about this is the fact that I am a CHRIST follower... not an ANNA follower. In fact the bible says I must actually die to myself and live for Christ.. So not only am I listening to the issue in my heart I am not following Jesus in the life of 'denying myself' that he intented for me to live.
Then this heart issue goes even deeper, into the fact that I still have a constant battle of living a little bit of my life for me (sometimes more :-/) and not solely trusting Jesus in the perfect plan he has for me in my life.
So you see, What you might think is just a "reaction" to the day you had, if you further analyze it and look at your heart you will find that unfortunately that is just not the case.

*Update on my Life*

The Song that Says it All

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

I've heard this song many times but I took a few minutes this morning and just read it outloud to my Savior... HE is AMAZING!! This song just says it all.. everything I believe in, what I feel, how I should live =) I challenge you to take a few minutes and do the same- read it outloud I think it will impact your day and move your heart!

The Song that Says it All

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

I've heard this song many times but I took a few minutes this morning and just read it outloud to my Savior... HE is AMAZING!! This song just says it all.. everything I believe in, what I feel, how I should live =) I challenge you to take a few minutes and do the same- read it outloud I think it will impact your day and move your heart!